"Having to deal with too much information can be overwhelming now as you struggle to weed out the unnecessary data. In order to make your day more manageable, don't ask any more questions once you discover what you need to know. Taking any kind of positive action at this time can help reduce your overload as long as you stay focused on the real world instead of your fantasies." - cancer horoscope for 5/24/07.
well, no shit. and believe me when i say that i'm trying...it's just that so much information, so much drama, so much interpersonal chaos keeps coming and i have nowhere to put it. i spent all night trying to help a friend whose ex-girlfriend/roommate in a strange city punched her in the face several times. she won't press charges, she won't take pictures of her injuries, she won't go stay anywhere else and she may end up staying in the relationship. well, honey, i send you lots of love, but then there's nothing more to say is there? i still have the list of shelters i made by calling everyone in texas, should you need it. but try to understand that i'm not 19, and i can't sit up all night talking about random shit. because i take this seriously, and now it's 2 am and i'm triggered, and you're still not keeping yourself safe.
and you...if you don't know what to say, then neither do i. more importantly, what do you want me to do with that information? fix it or don't, but please quit dragging me through the mud. i just can't take it.
that's the deal, y'all. no more 1 am phone calls, or 5 hour nursing home visits. i'd love to be there for everyone right now, BUT I CAN'T. i think it's time to get downright selfish and protective of my time before i lose it.
jeez. it's time for a klonopin and amy ray on youtube before i blow something.